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Sep. 28th, 2010

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When you read this you're tagged! Take a picture of you in your current state, no changing your clothes or quickly putting on makeup. NO PHOTOSHOP. Show your F-List the Real You!

Sep. 11th, 2010

Writer's Block: My Personal Concert

If you could have any musician or band play live - just for you and your friends - who would you pick?

Avenged Sevenfold....of course.

Aug. 2nd, 2010

Writer's Block: Please don't call it a comeback

Which famous or infamous historical person would you bring back to life, and why?

Jimmy "The Rev" Sullivan from Avenged Sevenfold. Is it really necessary to answer the why?

Jul. 30th, 2010

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Its now been over 7 months without this man, James Owen Sullivan, aka, Jimmy, aka The Rev. He died on my fathers birthday the end of last year. December 28th 2009 to be exact. I spent the whole night that night crying over him. Mourning him. I'm still mourning him. I probably will be for the rest of my life.

Avenged Sevenfold have been everything to me since I first saw them live in 2005. Thats almost 5 years with this man, and over 5 years now with the whole band. I cannot even imagine the pain the rest of those boys must be going through if my own, and all the other fans...The Fallen are going through the pain we are.

This is a post that should have been made sooner. But I didnt have the words, I still don't. I'm just typing what comes to my mind as it does. I can't sleep, and I'm up listening to So Far Away and Fiction over and over again from the new Avenged CD Nightmare. And listening to Syn's pain, and then Jimmy's voice. Its weird that Brian is Syn to me, but Rev has become Jimmy. Then again, The Rev/Jimmy...they were all him. He was never anything but himself. His stage persona and his real life personality were one and the same.

How are we supposed to find our own way without someone like Jimmy alive in this world? I know, I'm 19 years old, I should be able to function and move on with my life without a person that I only met twice in my lifetime. And I will, for myself, for my family and for Jimmy and the rest of the boys I will. But it hurts. Even when I think I'm fine there are nights like this where I just sit and cry over him. And I can't see that stopping anytime soon.

I wish the boys would release the version of Fiction with just Jimmy singing instead of Matt singing over them, but I don't blame them for not. And I'm sure that version of the song would kill me. Considering this version has me sitting here in tears.

I don't even know. I need to hug the boys, mourn with them. I know we, as a family all mourned together for awhile after, but its not the same. And the family that lives with me/near me will never understand this grief over Jimmy. Even the friends that live near me who like/love Avenged, here in TX or back in NYC understand this grief. Hell, I don't understand it so why should I expect them to? The ones who would understand....my 2 ducks, my Zacky, the ones who without Avenged I would have never known....the ones who live FAR too far away for my liking. Those are the ones who would be able to sit here with me in this grief and truly understand...because they feel it too.

I have no more to say, I'm repeating the same things over and over again. The bottom line is...

I miss you Jimmy. RIP baby. <3

Never feared for anything
Never shamed but never free
A life to heal the broken heart with all that it could

Lived a life so endlessly
Saw beyond what others see
I tried to heal your broken heart with all that I could

Will you stay?
Will you stay away forever?

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned
Facing time always on my mind
I have so much to say but you're so far away

Plans of what our futures hold
Foolish lies of growing old
It seems we're so invincible
The truth is so cold

A final song, a last request
A perfect chapter laid to rest
Now and then I try to find a place in my mind

Where you can stay
You can stay away forever

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned
Facing time always on my mind
I have so much to say but you're so far away

Sleep tight, I'm not afraid
The ones we love are here with me
Lay away a place for me
Cause as soon as I'm done I'll be on my way
To live eternally

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned
Facing time always on my mind
And the light you left remains but it's so hard to stay
When I have so much to say and you're so far away

I love you
You were ready
The pain is strong and urges rise
But I'll see you
When it lets me
Your pain is gone, your hands are untied

So far away
And I need you to know

So far away
And I need you to
I need you to know

Jul. 18th, 2010


May. 9th, 2010

Shag, Marry, Kill

My answers to this all disappeared..wtf

1. Comment to this and I will give you 3 people. [If you want to play that is!]
2. Post this meme with your answers.
3. Provide pictures and the names of the 3 people.
4. Label which you would shag, marry and throw off a cliff

girliknow gave me Synyster Gates, Zacky Vengeance, and James Hart

Shag - Synyster Gates...cause really, have you seen this man?

Marry - Zacky Vengeance because I love him to death, and could never hurt him, but don't really see him in a sexual way (but know MANY friends who would be happy to take care of him in that way. lol)

Kill - James Hart, because even though I absolutely love him, he is not Syn or Zacky. But it kills me to kill him.

Apr. 11th, 2010

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Icon meme, stolen from winter_ruins 

ONE. How do you feel right now?

TWO. What's your favorite pastime?

THREE. Do you consider yourself a strange person?

FOUR. What's your main fandom(s)?


SIX. How do you describe yourself?

SEVEN. What's your favorite icon to use besides your default?

EIGHT. Do you have an icon of your future husband/wife?

NINE. Do you have a WTF icon?

TEN. How do you feel towards love?

ELEVEN. Saddest icon?

TWELVE. Happiest icon?

THIRTEEN. Crackiest icon?

Feb. 20th, 2010

Writer's Block: Money to burn

If you were given two weeks off with an unlimited supply of money that was only good for those two weeks (anything you purchased, invested, or saved would disappear when the two weeks were up), what would you do?

I'd go on a serious traveling spree. Visit my Ducks, Fucking, Ashi. If Burn Halo were touring I'd follow them around for a few dates. Go to Cali for a little while (bring my friends too if I could kidnap them for a couple of days). Probably do as many things as possible that cost money just for the memories/experience.

Oct. 31st, 2009

Music Meme that no one will participate in -_-

Taken from crimson_rakuna .

Step 1: Put your iPod on shuffle.
Step 2: Post the first line from the first 50 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.
Step 3: Let everyone guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Bold the songs when someone guesses correctly.
Step 5: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING!

1. Can we forget about the things I said when I was drunk?
2. And then you said a little more about your dreams like it was my call, if you would only listen.
3. You held my hand and walked me home, I know.
4. If it makes you less sad, I will die by your hand.
5. Looking back at me I see that I never really got it right.
6. You're on your own my little nightmare, you cannot stay here.
7. She puts the make-up on like graffiti on the walls of the heartland
8. Hey Jude, don't make it bad, take a sad song and make it better.
9. I will break into your thoughts with whats written on my heart
10. I'll take you home if you don't leave me at the front door.
11. I love you, and I need you, Nelly I love you, I do, need you.
12. I can show you the world, shining, shimmery, splendid
13. I've paid my dues, time after time. I've done my sentence, but committed no crime.
14. Uh huh, holy shit, its about time you get off my dick
15. Close your eyes, the rain won't wash away
16. Lucky you were born that far away so we could both make fun of distance
17. End of passion play, crumbling away, I'm your source of self-destruction
18. Don't cross that line if you don't want to find what it feels like, cause I know you'll be running with your tail between your legs like a dog
19. Well she was an American girl, raised on promises
20. We pass through like a nightmare falling down, without touching the ground.
21. All the words in my mouth that the scene deemed unworthy of letting out banded together to form a makeshift militia and burrowed bloodily through my tongue and my teeth.
22. I never knew it, I never asked, I didn't care then, it happened so fast
23. So now your pictures worth a thousand words, you meant so much to me it hurts
24. This is the final night, boys. We are the cracks in diamond walls.
25. He met Marmalade down in old Moulin Rouge, strutting her stuff on the street
26. I'm taking my time, I'm trying to leave the memories of you behind
27. If you having girl problems I feel bad for you son
28. I think I did it again, I made you believe we're more then just friends
29. I can't explain, can't quite put my finger on it
30. The beauty, how nights blur. Look twice and tonight she'll bring the cure.
31. One at a time, constants become surreal
32. I woke up in a dream today, to the cold and the static
33. Finished with my woman cause she couldn't help me with my mind
34. People, they don't mean a thing to you, they move right through you, just like your breath.
35. I can't remember anything, can't tell if this is true or dream
36. Relationships they sting like bees to butterflies
37. Have you ever been hated or discriminated against? I have.
38. The drops of rain they fall all over, this awkward silence makes me crazy
39. Well sad, small, sweet, so delicate. You used to be this dying breed.
40. 8 o'clock Monday night and I'm waiting to finally talk to a girl a little cooler then me.
41. Why do you look at me when you hate me? Why should I look at you when you make me hate you to?
42. Take me down to the paradise city, where the grass is green and the girls are pretty.
43. Is this goodbye? Well you'd be better off dead then lying here alone, desperately waiting for the beating of my heart.
44. Before the story begins, is it such a sin for me to take whats mine, until the end of time?
45. World was on fire, and no one could save me but you
46. One more kiss could be the best thing, one more lie could be the worst.
47. What have I done, what have I done? How could I, be so blind?
48. Here I am on, the phone again and, awkward silences on the other end.
49. She don't lie in bed at night, staring at the ceiling
50. Last call, but I just kept on drinking. I saw a face in the crowd, one soon I would regret

Aug. 20th, 2009

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Comment on this and I'll give you three people. Lucky you, you get to choose which one you marry, fuck, or throw off of a cliff.


 gave me Aaron Baylor, Johnny Christ, and Joel Madden


Aaron Baylor, because though he's a bit reckless and also a bit of a manwhore, he also has a sweet southern boy side to him which makes him adorable and I think that someone like that works well for me. I'd be able to have fun and be a little reckless at times, and still have someone sweet and caring.


Johnny Christ - Because though I'd never hurt the boy, he's not someone I could see myself marrying, although he does have some of the same qualities as Aaron its not in the same way.

Throw Off A Cliff:

Joel Madden - Because he's an ass now. If you had asked me a few years ago, no, I never would have thought he'd be my answer for this. But with how much he's changed, yes.

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